Today, well this afternoon to be exact, I am a bit disappointed! This is because we were already cutting it close by going to buy the kids’ presents today.
Unfortunately for us, Friday the car overheated and shut down 3 times while my husband was driving and so on Saturday morning he took it to the mechanic. Needless to say it’s costing more than we wanted it to which then takes away from some of the money we had to do other things.
Today we were supposed to get some of the money to pay the mechanic and also purchase some gifts for K and Jr. However, when my husband got to one of the places it was closed and when I called the other, thinking he could still pass there, they closed early too. So now we have no money to give the mechanic(who btw called me earlier) and no money to buy gifts.
I’m beyond disappointed, I’m sad and angry because I feel like I failed my kids. One of my jobs is to bring joy and happiness in their lives and I know that doesn’t always have to come from buying material things but as K is getting older she obviously realises things more, so when she doesn’t get a present from us, I feel like she’ll be sad and maybe cry and then I’ll feel like an even bigger disappointment! Jr is only 8mths so it’s neither here nor there with him.
Even though we’ll possibly get the money come Thursday or Friday, I still missed “THE DAY”. I guess this is the part of parenting where I have to do my best in sitting her down and explaining to her that she won’t be getting her gift in time for Christmas but that she’ll get it after.
Life is tough for us sometimes and it’s at these points in my life that I just want to bawl my eyes out because I feel like I should be doing more!!!